2003-12-16 at 8:02 p.m.
Everything is changing. I always said I needed a change, bored of life, but this is not what I wanted. What I expected, but not what I wanted.
I don't get what has changed now that you are so close. Nothing has. so is there much point? It just gets to everyone. I wish it was just me, but its not. If it was just me then I wouldnt be bothered by the fact its affecting all my friends, and I would pretend to be happy.
Pretending. Its such a weird, unknown yet popular thing. Who doesnt? Its so sad to know that no one can be theirselves anymore, the way it used to be between us three.
I want to thank you, more than anyone, for the way you have managed to cheer me up regardless. The way, even though you are affected so much by this, have stuck by everyone, including me. You truly are a great person, and I feel honoured to be part of your life, and for to be part of mine. You don't know how much you mean to them, and they dont know how much they missing out on by doing what they are doing. You are a great friend to me, and I am always there if you need a shoulder. You. Me. Against the world. Watching Lord of The rings. :)
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