2003-12-31 at 9:47 p.m.
A new start. Hopefully.
I can do this.
I can change the person I am. Again. I can do that. I can be less relied upon, and less hated. less involved, care less.
I can do that, I really can.
If not, then its my doom.
Quite basically.
Cos if I can't do that then I have to make other decisions, because quite selfishly, other things aren't going to go my way.
I can do this. I'm not going to be the one that does everything, nope. :)
I am going to go with the flow.
See me flowing like a river?
I don't.
But I will.
I promise. All of you, that my will power will be stronger towards this than getting rid of msn.
If we separate, Just whistle, and I'll come running.
I promise.
I think that by tomorrow, I am going to accept my feelings, because only then can I move on. That's what I believe. From now on, I am not going to be so desparate, I'm not going to come running. If you want me, then you'll find me. Unless I don't want to be found.
Yes.
That's me. From now on.
Flowing.
Not arranging.
Laid back.
A good person.
Without you.
Through this, I believe that I really can be a better person. Maybe not for you, because by doing this we won't ever do anything anymore, but that's fine. Because you made that decision a long time ago, and when the oppurtunity arose to change all of that last week, you chose to stick with the way it has been for about a month. And I'm ok with that. I honestly am.
I'm a better person. Not brilliant, but better.
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