2004-02-29 at 9:25 p.m.
When reading witterings of others, I ponder whether a chronological list of the daily events in a diary is much better, whether what I write is maybe too cryptic, and my feelings are not worth reading. Even I don't like reading them. But I would find it too boring to read the same day over and over again, because I hate living the routine let alone then reading it.
I would love to write a list as nice as Libby's, but I would be too scared that it would not be interesting, and would just be a boring list. I need some tips in how to write one.
I can feel it. Its all being drained from me. The few things I liked about myself have been taken away, I scratch and scratch at my arms, my chest, trying my hardest. I'm not quite sure why I feel like this, and where it is all going to lead, I wish I did. I'm still scratching. Nothing seems to work anymore.
Another mindless day staring at monitors. I hate it. There wasn't even the swimming today. It's all gone.
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