2004-04-12 at 2:21 a.m.
When this, all thats in my head, ends and things go back to normal, will it be final? Being persuaded it will be, that maybe this time, I can securly say its over, but it's hard to tell, because I felt the same before.
We're all after the same thing, and am I the only one that knows that friendship is so much more important? Does that mean that I am wrong for thinking that, not normal perhaps? I don't know. Maybe I am the only one that sees friendship as such a precious thing. Everyone else is trying constantly to be with someone, making themselves sound unhappy if they are not with the person they want, but surely thats not everything. Does it really change much at our age whether we are with someone or not? Especially those in our group, the ones that wont be having sex, so all that is really changing is kissing, and is that that great? I know it is, but is it worth everything? It's not as if the person hates you just because you aren't going out.
This would all be different if you could promise me that you wouldn't change with it, or you weren't breaking anything before. It's not what everyone thinks. I'm not wanting it, as such, well at least I am, but would never. Like you have said.
I don't see any point in tomorrow. I don't want it, so should it really happen? I can't be bothered with it, it's just a day. I'm not in the right state of mind to celebrate something never worth celebrating on my account.
I miss Anna. Where is she? Is she with Alan do you think? Where is Alan?
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