2004-07-19 at 12:24 a.m.
I know its good. I know its progress. I know it means that one day we will both be happy, but what about the inbetween? What about that?
I need to know that I am good enough for this world. For this life. I've been blessed with everything, I know that, but cursed with this mind. I don't know what I want and that of which I do, scares the hell out of me.
Life scares me a lot more than death ever will. Maybe not the best frame of mind, maybe the best. I need to resolve something, something that maybe was unfinished, because when you find yourself reaching inside to your contemporary soul, searching for answers, when that makes you dizzy, when you can feel yourself reaching for the one exit you know, thats when you know something isn't right. Inside. You'll never change what has been and gone. Stars have faded, but we'll see them some day. I need to take what I need and be on my way.
What I would give to have one more chance to love.
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